I’d been traveling a ton, felt totally ungrounded and have numerous deadlines tightening their strangle holds on me. But of course, I have created all of this for myself.
My drive can often switch from passion driven, to obsessive, to self interested over the course of even a single day. The self interested part of me wants to prove to everyone- look how much I can do! Look how I can be what you want me to! Look how good I am! Aren’t I doing a good job??? — It’s like I’m a little girl, jumping up and down screaming, trying to get my parent’s attention to love me!
❣️And in the end, isn’t that what we are all trying to do in some ways? But the problem is, when that part of us takes over. When I’m not conscious, I start to take everything on and forget the wisdom of my body. And I’m tired. And it’s not working. I know it because I can feel the difference in what I create and who I am when I come from love and passion rather than this fear place of not being good enough.
✏️What I write feels true, rather than trying. What I say flows easily, rather than calculated. What do feels right, rather than forced. And when I choose it feels light rather than out of obligation or with resentment. It’s just that if I’m not careful, I fall back into my old patterns of Do-Do-Do, instead of just BE.
💡This might always be my hero’s journey. And so I’ve decided to intentionally slow down—to start each day giving intentional love to this part of me, and have faith that what I put out coming from this place will be exactly enough. #riskeveryday